April 16, 2017 at 5:15pm God answered me.
This will make some people pause, some might question and some might rejoice. I fell to my knees and cried out thank you four days ago because my prayer was answered this past Sunday.
Hi gorgeous and welcome! Thank you for reading with me today as I continue my blogging story. Today I want to share with you the biggest chapter yet.
I love to go on walks, as you know. On this Easter Sunday, I had just slept a ton, eaten a bunch and went to a church service that was so beautiful, I got goose bumps. It was different than my regular cozy Sunday morning. It was Jesus’s resurrection day, a day of renewal and hope. I never dreamed that on this day my heart would be resurrected as well.
Around 4:30pm I decided to finally go on that walk I mentioned earlier. My mom was suppose to go with me but then decided not to and I didn’t think anything of it. I didn’t grab my earphones because I wanted to just listen to my music out loud on this gorgeous day. I power walked all the way down to my usual spot, a small park in my neighborhood. The only people at my special little spot were an old man and I assumed his young grandson, who was learning how to ride a bike. I usually walk four laps because that makes one mile. I continued to walk, switching from my country music to my Praise playlist on Spotify because sometimes I feel that I connect most with Him when listening to music. I’ve always been this way. From dance, to studying to driving, I love the power music has. Anyway, You Make Me Brave by Amanda Cook came on. I tend to listen to this song when thing’s get to be on my mind and I just get lost in the clouds. I am actually listening to this song right now as I sit at my desk and write this. I’ve been attempting to write this since the beginning of the week so there really are no words.
I haven’t forgotten about this precious little boy who probably had the best manners ever. This little four year old could talk to me better than any adult and always let me walk in front of him as he sped up to meet his grandpa. As we both got closer to his grandpa, a cute man in a bright blue polo sitting on a bench, I was lost in the clouds until he started a conversation with me that forever changed me…
Without a hello I heard,
“You are artistic.”
Confused, I paused and said,
He repeated himself and just looked at me so comfortably and for some reason I just paused as he continued to say,
“I can tell. Do you like to write? Do you sketch or draw? You listen to music a lot don’t you?”
As he poured out these questions I forced a smile out of my confused face and told him why yes I do, I blog and love music and writing.
He nodded his head some more and then told me,
“I advise you to go somewhere, like this park, by yourself without distractions and just write. See what you can do.”
I kept nodding my head until he broke the silence with the question,
“You have a sister, right?”
I said yes and asked if he knew my family. He continued and said no. Without hesitation he looked up at me and said,
“You are worried.”
I didn’t know what to say or do. I know I am a worrier, because I care. I can’t tell you how many times I have written in my journal that I need to stop worrying and trust God. I just can’t because what if this bad thing will happen or what if I do this or that? For the past year this has been at the top of my prayer list because by worrying, I don’t trust God’s grasp on my life. The real question was how, how did this stranger know this?
“Your mom, you are worried about her. She is struggling with something and you don’t know what to do.”
Some background for you- my mom’s dad is sick with cancer and when I found out he wasn’t doing well, I didn’t get sad for him because I knew he would be painless in heaven no matter the outcome, but I got in instant worry mode about my mom. What would a loss like that do to her? I love her so much and was scared at the repercussions of such trauma. No family is perfect, I’ve learned that but I have worries of my own and I’m sure you do too….
He looked up to me and continued to point out things that only people in my family could know. There was no possible way he knew the things he did. I kept asking if he knew my parents or lived in this neighborhood in order to make sense of this, but he just smiled and said no.
“Keep showing her love. Your prayers are being heard and she is in God’s hands. One day you will hold her hand and pray with her, just you two. You no longer can worry about your mom.”
Tears started to well in my eyes as he continued,
“God works in mysterious ways. I have never been to this park before but He sent me here today to talk to you. He has placed mental images in my mind.”
My breath stopped.
“You went on a drive for I’d say about 10-15 minutes, right? You prayed out for a sign and encouragement. Here is your sign, here is your encouragement.”
With my eyes widening mumbling to him how he knew this, I looked back on last week as I drove around Bowling Green screaming out to God to give me a sign. Give me some encouragement. Is my writing on this blog fulfilling your plans for me? Am I making a difference? What’s going to happen? HOW DID HE KNOW THIS. I knew right then as a tear fell down my face that I was having a conversation with God.
“You are trying to be a light in this world, I can tell when you walked. Don’t stop. Keep trying to shine God’s light. I want you to read Psalm 34.”
Last week I wrote on my blog, “Be that light”…He then made me open up this verse and he told me to go home and read it.
As I searched my phone for this bible verse, my fingers shaking at what was happening, he added on something that only the listener of my prayers could know…
“You are seeing someone. A boy?”
Looking up from my phone I locked eyes with him.
“He is driving like 60 mph down the road.”
Nick was driving back to South Carolina…
He smiled as I stood in total shock. He said one sentence from a conversation that only Nick and I have had and he told me it is okay. He told me that God is watching him and that it is okay. My relationship with him started over 10 years ago. I’ve prayed for him then, now and will continue to. I can’t control anyone’s faith journey but my own and God reassured me that He has him and I need to let go of worry.
As he sat gripping my right hand so tight I got control enough to ask him to tell me his name. His name was Tim. I repeated his name back and he did mine as well. We ended up our conversation by him saying,
“Today is Easter, a day of resurrection and renewal. Your heart is resurrected today. You are no longer bound to the chains of worry. Trust God. Your parents let you go when you were little right? You trusted them.” He squeezed my hand one last time and said, “You can let go.”
I released my hand from His and a page in my journal popped in my head that said, Let Go(d).
Tim, if you are reading this, thank you. God used you and I will forever remember your message. I prayed for a sign and God answered me. Below is Psalm 34, a verse that my heart will rest on as I move forward in life and continue to write my story. From this day, I have prayed with people that I never had before and feel God smiling. HE HEARS YOU. He spoke to me through Tim and he told me God might cross our paths again one day but I will never know. The power of prayer is real. Lift your worries up to God because He is asking for them! He died for our sins and has chosen to carry those for us. I trust Him with every ounce of me and I promised right then to try to shine light in any darkness our world throws our way.
If this message gave you some hope today, share it, reread it or contact me because you know I love talking and coffee dates. I reread Psalm 34 every singe morning and below I have it written out for you to read. SHINE, PRAY AND TRUST. He is listening and loves you. Thank you for reading with me today.
| Psalm 34 |
- I will extol the LORD at all times; his praise will always be on my lips.
- My soul will boast in the LORD; let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
- Glorify the LORD with me; let us exalt his name together.
- I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.
- Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.
- This poor man called, and the LORD heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles.
- The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.
- Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
- Fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing.
- The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
- Come, my children, listen to me; I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
- Whoever of you loves life and desires to see many good days,
- keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies.
- Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it.
- The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous and his ears are attentive to their cry;
- the face of the LORD is against those who do evil, to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
- The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.
- The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
- A righteous man may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all;
- he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken.
- Evil will slay the wicked; the foes of the righteous will be condemned.
- The LORD redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.