Why do we always wish for things we don’t have? I have been blessed in my life with friends and family who love me unconditionally but for some reason I have days where I can’t love myself fully. Recently, it was one of those days where I wanted to delete all my social media accounts, take back the ice cream I ate last night and sit and reminisce at old photos. As I have said before, I have a habit of trying to keep myself busy, surround myself with people all the time and act like I have my life together 24/7, but some times that is not the case. We are not perfect. The tendency to compare myself to others does not go away over night and neither does life’s difficulties. I admit that those thoughts consume my mind time to time and I know that I am not the only girl in the world who had those thoughts today either. As I sit here, I want to invite you to rest with me and decompress all the negativity that has filled your day. Light a candle, turn on some chill music (I have James Bay blaring right now), open your journal, and let’s open our eyes to the beauty in today.
The Lord has an amazing way of speaking to us and this morning after waking up bright and early at 7:00am, I read,
“Accept the challenge of something new, say yes to the ways I work in your life. Trust Me and don’t be afraid.”
Every day brings a new challenge. My old habits have been trying to tackle my mind this past week and today the Lord blessed me with a day to self reflect and to realize that I need to depend on Him even more. Today could have been a marvelous day, but while I sipped on my coffee and ate my oatmeal, I tried to make my plans for later instead of living in the moment. School is ending and it can be easy to add stresses to our life that are not necessary. I tried to go on a run (yes I attempted to run) and then go to a barre class right after. I found myself getting really shaky so refueled myself but felt so weak. Emotionally and physically I have felt broken down and it is because I put pressure on myself to do absolutely everything in my calendar, plus some. We are not called to live a life of stress. Today is a new day to a new week and I want you to know that you are not alone when it comes to stressing, over running your body and dealing with imperfections. We are not perfect but He is. I want to change my mindset around. Do you?
“You are not alone”.