Do you know the saying nothing good lasts forever and nothing bad lasts forever? I truly believe that and sometimes life can just feel so heavy. That feeling that you are carrying a ton of weight on your shoulders. Whether it’s trying to make people happy, living up to people’s expectations, watching people leave your life, finding balance, etc, we often carry weight people tell us to let go of. How? I know that we aren’t suppose to carry burdens or as Kairos said last night, live in fear. I know these things, but sometimes they feel inevitable. How can we become light again?
I often use the saying, “Be a light”. You are probably wondering what I mean. That light feeling of joy, happiness and carefree can come and go. Darkness can sometimes come over us like that weight we often carry. We are attracted to places with light. When light fills the room, we see beauty. When light comes through the window every morning, we wake up and feel alive. We should feel like this every day and I often try to by filling it with warm coffee cups by my window, hearing inspiring stories from others, writing with music playing in the background, or exploring this wonderful world. I want to learn how to not be heavy physically, but mentally.
This week has felt heavy to me. Nick is applying to Medical school and the unknown answers often fill our minds with the “what if”. My grandfather is about to pass away and there is something about watching your parent hurting take over your entire body. I call my sister to hear some delightful news, but come to find out her fiancé’s uncle passed away this week. The list just keeps getting longer and longer.
I opened up my devotional today in the midst of writing this and was in awe of what it said…
“Do not hide from your fear or pretend it isn’t there. Anxiety that you hide in the recesses of your heart will give birth to fear of fear: a monstrous mutation. Bring your anxieties out into the Light of My presence, where we can deal with them together.”
Wow. He wants us to be lights and I understand there are some things in this world that we just can’t control. Our minds are equipped to control around us. By the use of technology and independence, we like the feeling of being in control of our lives. The constant chain of fear will lay on our shoulders, unless we learn to become light again. Happiness still exists when sadness occurs. The sun rises and sets every day and that beauty I believe we often take for granted. We wake up every single day with a purpose to act while the sun still shines. There is always an awakening of things that have fallen.
If you are feeling heavy, and not physically, but mentally, know that you will become light again. You will be smiling at the beginning and end of another day. Hope exists for a reason and if we focus on the failures and fallings in life, that hope will diminish. It exists for a reason, doesn’t it? You exist for a reason. This week, I will continue to march on and to be a light when it is needed. I might fall, cry, worry and fear, but I will not carry those on my shoulders. Instead I will pray and invest in the comfort of those around me. As should you…
My hope for you is that you fall asleep smiling tonight. Make a list of what you have accomplished or what you aspire to achieve. It’s okay to look forward to something and to get your hopes up. That’s what makes this life a thrilling ride. Let’s live it to the fullest and feel light again.