Hi beautiful! Do you ever feel like the world is throwing all of your weaknesses at you and you just can’t get a break? That has been me this week as I travelled to Memphis, Tennessee with my family, friends and boyfriend for the St. Jude Classic Fundraiser. A part from internal struggles, I got to work the event and be a part of such a humbling experience while meeting some extraordinary people. Within times of weakness and worry, God is always throwing messages at you. Thank you for joining today as I share mine!
Memphis is a city that I don’t go to often but they have so many local places that are hidden from the tourists. Our first night we went to a brewery called, Wiseacre Brewery, that was tucked away behind a train track. Not going to lie, it looked a little sketchy but was so colorful and eclectic on the inside! We met up with everyone on the St. Jude fundraising board, family and friends and got to taste test a bunch of beers. I’m not that big of a beer person because it makes me feel real full, but I enjoyed the company and the atmosphere of the brewery!
Next, we watched the Preds game (GO PREDS) in a private room at a restaurant right above Beal Street while enjoying some fried avocado! This was a new treat and I thoroughly enjoyed it. This was the beginning of my traveling and eating mind game that I kept playing. On the outside I seemed composed and put together, but on the inside I felt huge and uncomfortable. I often forgot about that when I looked up and smiled at the new people and the person by my side. We have to remember what truly matters and that’s memories.
My favorite memory from the entire weekend was when we got to go on a private tour to the St. Jude Children’s Hospital. This place is a family. It costs at least 2 million to run St. Jude DAILY! What?! I have never seen so many relationships been built from a tragic situation. Our tour guide was a St. Jude survivor herself and was the happiest person I have ever met. She even met the love of her life at that hospital, who was a survivor himself. She would pass people in the hallway and say she saved me! They provide proms to teenage girls who can’t go to a real one and make them feel absolutely beautiful. People should feel like that every single day and St. Jude makes sure everyone in there does.
Our tour began in a room with a group of patients. Comes to find out, the girl I got to talk to was named Madison and she was a blogger herself! Talking to her was so uplifting that I forgot I was even in a hospital…We talked about everything. She also wants to blog about her travels to Germany. Nick travelled there so they hit it off as well. It is crazy how out of every patient in that hospital, Madison was the one we got to talk to. God makes no mistakes when he plans to bring people together.
We also met a young boy who is in the process of surgeries, but is a sports blogger and has actually interviewed NFL players during the Super Bowl! The joy that comes from these individuals when they have been fighting for their lives is mind blowing. How could I ever let the anxiety and regret from eating my english muffin and jam that morning in the hotel get in the way of the joy that should fill me every day?
They had to force us to leave so we could see all the latest technology they offer. We ended up eating lunch with all of them in the St. Jude cafeteria. The food was SO good. I had sushi and my favorite part was all of the doctor’s eat in the same place as the patients and families because it is there home also.
For some reason after that tour of a lifetime, I decided to go to the gym to get that sushi and english muffin off my mind. As soon as I got there, a woman was working out right beside me and was probably the most hard working person I have ever had to workout next to. I instantly felt insecure and every weakness of mine popped into my head. I ended up leaving and feeling worse than I did entering. I tried to stop and think of Madison as she ate her cake in a cup in such a happy manner. That’s what truly matters.
Fast forward, the event that night consisted of live entertainment and an auction where people gave over 20 thousand dollars instantly. It is amazing how giving people are! Once again my mind was blown and I ended my evening eating a bag of chips and sleeping like a baby.
The next morning before leaving town, we had to try a local coffee shop that happened to be one of Madison’s favorites! It was called Cafe Eclectic, one of my favorite words ha so it was a no brainer that we had to show up. I loved this shop. I had an almond milk cappuccino along with a yogurt and granola bowl, one egg and half a biscuit with homemade jam (my weakness). Sadly, I didn’t like the yogurt they used, but the coffee was amazing! The cappuccino ended up spilling all over me…they brought me another one so all was well! I would definitely go back so check it out if you are ever in the area.
Not going to lie, I was struggling. Yes, from being soaked in coffee, but also I woke up not feeling well at all. I was taking at least two things of medication and still battling my mind of body image. I wanted to cry it out in the car, but instead of running there, I ended up opening my Jesus Calling (You can order online for an amazing price here) right at the table. God was there and knew exactly what I was thinking because it read-
“Who is in charge of your life? If it is you, then you have good reason to worry. But since I am in charge, worry is both unnecessary and counterproductive. When you start to feel anxious about something, relinquish the situation to Me…”
The best part was that when I started to look up the message again online,the link did not take me to the verse in the book, but instead lead me to one that I read and shared the last time I was making what I ate my priority-
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?” – Mathew 6:25-27
There is so much more in this amazing life that we should focus on. On a poster in the hospital a child wrote, “We are God’s warriors.” We are exactly that. We aren’t perfect, but we are perfectly created in His image.
I encourage you to think of what true joy is and what should be remembered at the end of each and every day. You are SO loved! Order a cappuccino, eat multiple biscuits, love on others, and be one of God’s warriors today. Can’t wait to visit this unique city again!