Good morning gorgeous!
Let me start out by saying how blessed and thankful I am for all the support I received for opening my blog up to the public. At first, I used it more as an online journal for myself but now I’m excited to share and start an amazing journey with you!
Mornings are my favorite time of day. I am such an early riser and love it! People laugh because my sleeping in is 9:00 or 9:30 on a really good day. I am not like every other college student, which is not a bad thing at all because I wake up, drink my coffee, have my quiet time and eat breakfast without any distractions! Currently, I am living in a sorority house so finding time to myself is essential and that is exactly where I am this morning. I have my bowl of honey nut cheerios with almond milk and half of a banana, one cup of dark roast coffee with vanilla, almond milk creamer and a dash of calorie-free stevia and my journal which is what I wanted to share with you today.
To the left, you will see this small pink journal that I got at TJ Maxx, shocker, one late night during my first week of college. I have written in and carried this around for two years! When going to college, my fear was being homesick. There is no where I love more than my home that I have lived in for my entire life. I remember my mom, dad and best friend dropped me off and when they were gone I realized I didn’t know what to do on my own. When I was about to graduate high school, I received a Jesus Calling daily devotional that fed me peaceful reminders and scriptures. For some reason I noticed that every single one was saying EXACTLY what I needed to hear that day, like it knew what I was thinking and feeling. This was not a coincidence…I used to call them quotes because the scripture part I just ignored due to the fact that opening the bible scared me and I wanted to avoid my lack of knowledge on the matter, but you have to start somewhere! After looking in my small little devo book every morning, all of the quotes I underlined were starting to overwhelm me so one night I decided to write them all down in my pink journal. The first page I wrote I wanted to share with you below because although I didn’t know it then, this devotional has applied to every single page following this one.
“Thank Me for this time of neediness, when you must depend on me more than usual. Do not waste this opportunity by wishing it away. Trust that I know what I’m doing-that I can bring good out of everything you endure. Don’t let your past or present suffering contaminate your view of the future, and I have good things in store for you. I alone know the things I am planning for you-to give you a future and a hope.”
When writing this down, I really didn’t know what would come next. Luckily, God gave me the women of Alpha Delta Pi who took me to my first bible study. I was terrified and every time someone mentioned it, my palms got sweaty. This I have learned is the sign that God wants me to do something. So, I went and found myself lost as ever but every week I kept wanting to go back and learn more. That one small group that meets every week has changed my life and I can’t wait to tell you about the things that have come from me taking that small step to sit with a bunch of girls, drink coffee and talk vulnerably.
From then on I took my little pink book to bible study every week and wrote down all of my worries, concerns and quotes that inspired me. Remember, I still didn’t go to church, open the bible or really know why I felt so much peace writing a bunch of stuff in a $5 notebook from TJ Maxx, but then again I’ve learned we never know why certain things happen. Everything happens for a reason. Jeremiah 29:11 is a verse that will serve as my backbone because every day and every phase of life has it’s own challenges. I find hope knowing that God has planned out my life and all I have to do is follow. My prayer every day is for the Lord to take my hand and lead me in the right direction because I have realized without Him leading me, I’m lost. Follow your heart today and open a journal of your own.
“For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you” | Isaiah 41:13